just when i thought we were already crazy... 

Petal Wishes

by: the empress of darkness

As I taste the bitterness
Of my tears
I hide between
The cushions with fear
I languish at the thought
Of never being alone
Longing for that spark
From the eyes of the unknown
And stare into endless rainbows
Behind those firely gaze
It shall only happen once
And cold air will sweep
Through my veins
As the two souls entwine
Controlling that very moment
And everything shall stop
But us.
That is the sign
Where all crossroads will meet
No more bitterness
No more fearTimeless
Over centuries
It was bounded
And eternally will be.

Wishlist part II

~~To the german guy who fucked up my PC:

I hope you lose ALL your files too!!

-=-=-SatinAsh-=-=-=-

(nah, it's just me being exagerated and shallow)

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Death Wish List:

Time to shout your DEATH WISH…

DEATH WISH - a breathing space for depressed humans
who would like to release their inner thoughts
and deepest secrets before death falls on them..
Please dont hesitate to send in your DEATH WISH before you're buried down the ground.

- To: Hobby
"PLEASE CONFESS THE TRUTH!The day you glimpse for the same blood I have"
- From: Silly-me

- To: Amang Lasinggero
" You are the reason for my psychological imbalance..."
- From: Minu-Murah Mo

Femme Fatale

by: Velvet

I have a bad hobby. And its driving me nuts. When I do it, I think about impossible possibilities miles away beyond my reach. This is a sin and im not ashamed to look practically pathetic and plainly stupid. Im tired of writing sexual fantasies and sending them to the person most important to me. not because I wouldn’t like any in reality, but because the more I think about it, the more I desperately want to search for him. My bad hobby brought me to the end of my rope to leap into the shallowness of my mind. And without strings attached I jumped in and dove in deeper. Without thinking. Just feeling. Forcing myself further, with no assurance of my return. This bad hobby, as may be unsounded to others, brings me to satisfaction, intellectually, spiritually; and giving consent for my material body to be degraded. Stimulate me to the heights of the farthest corner of space and time. I know of no other refuge. I know of no other salvation. It’s a one sided mirror and a tango with one foot. Less than one. Less than half. I ask of no forgiveness for being too addicted. This is my obsession and my demise. Pages of thoughts left unsaid. I blend in into the white background. Not knowing, not being known. My entity once evolved me, now I create the silence of a thousand leaves. And I shape my mind to knowing, condition my body into feeling. My bad hobby I shall never take away.
Yes, I am a sinner. I am crazy…and you are my bad hobby.
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note: Velvet loves underground and nico. haha.. She writes for this 'zine and bottled up her grievances at http://atomicvelvetsigh.blogspot.com/

for the married, soon to be married, divorced, and soon to be divorced

-----------------THE TEN MOST IMPORTANT THINGS-----------------

For Wives

1. Show that you trust him. Act as if your relationship will never end.
2. Don't bring out the bills at breakfast time.
3. Don't try to start a conversation with him while he's reading or watching sport on TV.
4. Don't correct him in front of other people.
5. Don't try to make him jealous.
6. Don't badmouth his relatives.
7. Don't put a shirt in his drawer with a button missing.
8. Don't call him at work unless it's absolutely necessary.
9. Don't use his razor.
10. Don't threaten to leave him unless you have a better place to go.


For Husbands

1. Don't keep telling her about all the other women you could have married.
2. Don't keep talking about the beautiful chicks at work.
3. Don't pick up something to read when she's trying to talk to you.
4. Don't ever forget her birthday.
5. Don't ever bring a friend home for dinner without asking her first.
6. If you know you're going to be late getting home call her and tell her.
7. Don't try to make her jealous.
8. Don't look like a slob on your day off from work.
9. Don’t keep on blaming her whenever something goes wrong.
10. Don't ever go to sleep without telling her you love her.
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note: the above was sent by an anonymous donor.

A tribute to the other half

My love for you is 50 percent over a Hundred.
You never swim the gallon of my necessity,
Yours is a half inch from the outside.

Believe me, this is half meant only.

By: Country Girl Iha

Calling all idiotors / 'zinisters !

... well actually, anybody who used to write or contribute to the fanzine. And those interested (if there are any) to post anything. ("idiotors" coined for idiot editors)

KKK has nothing to do with the Ku Klux Klan from the US tho, nor the Katipunan from the Philippines, although at one point we considered ourselves radicals. (Or did we?) Anyway, we do not promote racism nor struggle for the emancipation of the working class. The Fanzine was made up by a bunch of idiots who started this in high school and somewhere between the debuts and college lost contact. Now that some of us are burdened by working overtime under a capitalist company or a non-profit organization; and/or burdened by the dullness of life, maybe this website will open another door of oportunities or mis-opertunities (if there is such a thing).

And as Pheqpheqta used to say old habits never die hard so here we are again to write about rants, ants and pants and everything in between, or inside. Whatever that means...